Trying to Live Shame-Free

Check out a piece I wrote for Life Without Baby blog at http://lifewithoutbaby.wordpress.com/2012/05/17/guest-post-trying-to-live-shame-free/#comment-4462

I was built for mothering not marketing!

I have been searching for so long for other peoples approval and praise that I forgot about why I wrote my book in the first place.  I keep wanting more!  I feel like I've only helped a few women and I'm having a hard time spreading the word because I don't want to bombard people with heavy marketing on my blog, Twitter and Facebook.  I believe in my work and I'm proud of what I wrote but I lack the skills and too conscientious about being in peoples faces on spreading the word.  My timidness is holding me back.

I live everyday waiting to see who wrote to me on Facebook or Twitter or commented on my blog.  I need this attention because I'm not getting it from the kids I'm suppose to have.  My foster kids do praise me and are proud of me but they are all adults and have their own lives to live.  I barely got to live the life I've always dreamed of.   I wanted to be a mother from scratch.  I have come a long way but at times it's hard to see this.

My book is my baby and I'm not a very good mother right now.

I have read so many blogs my brain is going to explode.  I've read so many sites on how to market your book but you need a certain amount of charisma and charm to be good at it.  I knew it wasn't going to be easy but never thought it would be this hard.  I was built for mothering not marketing.

Endometriosis

Excerpt from Chapter Eighteen--

"When the paramedics finally arrived, I was relieved but felt self-conscious as well.  I mentioned that I had taken a Midol earlier, but it didn’t even come close to curbing my pain.  As the paramedics evaluated me I couldn’t help but feel embarrassed that I wasn’t able to handle the pain I was having and that I wanted to go to the emergency room for painful cramps.  I was so dizzy and in such pain I didn’t know what else to do."

Update

Still working hard trying to get my book noticed.  So far I have sold 35 copies since I first released it in Nov 2011.  Not the greatest number but it could be worse.  I'm hoping it will pick up within the next two years.  The Hunger Games book was released in 2008 and it has only recently taken off so that gives me some hope.  I guess it takes a long time for word of mouth to travel to so many people.  I haven't given up hope but I have put off writing my next book for a while.  I really enjoy meeting new people on Twitter.  I know it's not the greatest route to go but I'm still a newbie and I like meeting people from all over the world.

My foster kids keep me quite busy.  Eva moved back in last May and we have been getting along great.  I really enjoy spending time with her and we became even closer when my parents took her and I camping last summer for four days.  Eva received her drivers license last month and now saving up to buy her own car.  For now she drives Larry's car to work on the weekends (his car is smaller than mine, I have a SUV type vehicle) and during the week I take her.  Eva turns 22 in August 2012.

Shurik still lives in D.C. and recently got a new job working as an office administrator at a real estate investment firm.  We're very proud.  Shurik will be 23 in August 2012.

Ellie moved out last fall because she and Larry were not seeing eye to eye and the relationship is now estranged.  We get periodic updates from her sister Eva and to our surprise she recently sent us a complimentary message through Facebook.  Ellie turned 19 two months ago.  She has not visited us since she moved out.

Darya is doing well and still lives on her own.  She has dated a few different people but nothing serious yet.  She regularly visits us and sometimes spends the weekend.  Darya will be 23 in July 2012.

Larry and I invited Darya and Shurik over so we could spend Easter with all three kids.  I made them Easter baskets and filled them with candy.  Also, I bought two Easter games for them to play, they had a blast.

Q and A

If anyone has questions about the book or anything else, please feel free to ask:)

Endometriosis Awareness Day 16.

A few weeks ago I was featured on another blog.  Thanks Nicole :D

http://whisperedwordsforevercaptured.blogspot.com/2012/03/endometriosis-awareness-day-16.html

Great Reviews!

I am thrilled to say that so far I have been getting great reviews from family, friends and fans on Twitter.  Thanks everyone for your kind words! 

http://www.amazon.com/Lost-Sea-Mothers-Mother-Yet/product-reviews/1467966800/ref=dp_top_cm_cr_acr_txt?ie=UTF8&showViewpoints=1

http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/lost-in-a-sea-of-mothers-catherine-lambert/1107954039?ean=2940032856030&itm=1&usri=lost+in+a+sea+of+mothers