I was built for mothering not marketing!

I have been searching for so long for other peoples approval and praise that I forgot about why I wrote my book in the first place.  I keep wanting more!  I feel like I've only helped a few women and I'm having a hard time spreading the word because I don't want to bombard people with heavy marketing on my blog, Twitter and Facebook.  I believe in my work and I'm proud of what I wrote but I lack the skills and too conscientious about being in peoples faces on spreading the word.  My timidness is holding me back.

I live everyday waiting to see who wrote to me on Facebook or Twitter or commented on my blog.  I need this attention because I'm not getting it from the kids I'm suppose to have.  My foster kids do praise me and are proud of me but they are all adults and have their own lives to live.  I barely got to live the life I've always dreamed of.   I wanted to be a mother from scratch.  I have come a long way but at times it's hard to see this.

My book is my baby and I'm not a very good mother right now.

I have read so many blogs my brain is going to explode.  I've read so many sites on how to market your book but you need a certain amount of charisma and charm to be good at it.  I knew it wasn't going to be easy but never thought it would be this hard.  I was built for mothering not marketing.

Endometriosis

Excerpt from Chapter Eighteen--

"When the paramedics finally arrived, I was relieved but felt self-conscious as well.  I mentioned that I had taken a Midol earlier, but it didn’t even come close to curbing my pain.  As the paramedics evaluated me I couldn’t help but feel embarrassed that I wasn’t able to handle the pain I was having and that I wanted to go to the emergency room for painful cramps.  I was so dizzy and in such pain I didn’t know what else to do."